My Little Aj’s Birth Story

Motherhood started at an early age for me but that only means I can Love them a little longer!

  On the morning of January 7^th, 2013 I woke up thinking I peed myself and didn’t realize my life would change forever. I remember waking up and our house was freezing because the heater broke and we had just moved in! I walked to the bathroom jumped in the shower and put on a fresh pair of pajamas. I went back to our room and laid back down to sleep when I felt my pants get wet again. I jumped out of bed and went and shower and changed once more and when I was finished, I attempted to lay back down once more. I cuddled under the blankets and closed my eyes when I feel the same thing happen once more! At this point I woke up Angelo to tell him I didn’t know whats going on I keep peeing on myself and half asleep he looks at me and says, “eww your nasty!”. I remember feeling so embarrassed and said, “gee thanks!” I got out of bed and this time the bed was wet! Finally, it hit me I held my belly and to myself said “Can it be my water? Oh my god Is the baby coming?” I go downstairs and call my midwife who confirms that it was my water leaking!! I go back upstairs and tell Angelo “come on we have to go to the hospital the baby is coming”. Angelo jumps up “what what the baby is coming.” He goes and wakes up his mom and lets her know what is going on. I called my mom, grandma, sister! you know first baby I was nervous, scared, excited, emotional and so much more. The car drive to the hospital I didn’t say a word. We finally make it to Fairview, and we walk up to labor and delivery within minutes the waiting room is filling up with family.  They come in and check and sure enough it was my water but at this point it is now 9ish and I am in no kind of pain just leaking water. So the OB on call tells me that because I wasn’t feeling any kind of pain they have to induce my labor by giving me Pitocin .At this point I was relaxed just walking around and agreed to getting induced and was moved over to the room where I would have our baby boy ! Pitocin was started by IV and within an hour I was feeling those contractions come so strong. I remember going into the hospital saying I was not getting the epidural and the nurse told me to sign the papers just in case I changed my mind. They gave me pain medicine in my IV to help with the pain I was in. They got me out of bed and had me rocking in a rocking chair, bouncing on a ball, in a hot shower all while I cried in pain. At this point I’m going to say it was like 3ish and I gave in and asked for the epidural they kicked everyone out being that the waiting room was so full people that just kept coming in and out (yes it was stressful!)  so, they could give me it. Finally, it was in and I started feeling it right away. I asked the nurse if she could get Angelo for me and she said of course. When he walks in why he was holding a box of food and sits right next to me and pulls out the biggest burger and starts to eat! Yes, I was so upset because I couldn’t eat and here, he was eating away. Things got a little out of hand in the waiting room and Angelo requested no one be let back in so I could sleep a little. Holding on to the back of the bed on my knees I was able to fall asleep for a while. Now the middle of the night yes, I said the middle of the night still no baby and I was at 2cm yes 2cm! I was so tired so exhausted and I just wanted him out of me. They checked and noticed that my water didn’t fully break now 1am and they popped what was left of my water. Few hours go by and they check, and I was 5cm I was going crazy at this point the babies heart rate was going down and they had to give me oxygen to help him. Here it is morning time and still no baby I was frustrated and told them to please cut him out I needed him out. At this point the epidural somehow moved and I start to feel pain I clearly remember grabbing Angelo by the shirt and telling him I want him out now and I’m going to start pushing and I don’t care. He was like angelica do not push I’ll get the nurse, but I started pushing.

       Finally, it was time to push I was at 10cm and baby was coming. I started to push and with every push I felt weaker and weaker. I felt like I couldn’t do it. I was so exhausted my body just didn’t have the strength to do what it had to. After an hour of pushing he was finally out. The cord was wrapped around his neck a couple times they unwrapped it and laid him on my chest. But a mother’s biggest fear happened to me my baby boy didn’t CRY! I looked at him he was all purple not moving not breathing just laying on me. I was a first time mom but I knew this wasn’t normal at all I asked the nurse “ what is wrong with my baby ?” she looks at him she shakes him a little she looks at him again she shakes him again this time even harder . The look on her face is a look I will never forget she grabbed him off me so fast and started to yell code pink code pink hurry code pink!!!! I freaked out big time and stared yelling “what is wrong with him? why isn’t he crying? Someone please!” No one wanted to tell me anything room filled up with doctor so fast and I was laying on the bed still getting worked on with tears pouring down. So many different feelings but being super scared was a big one! I remember thinking “is he dead? When will he cry? God please you can’t take him from me when you just gave me him! God please.” I look up and Angelo is trying to hide so I don’t see him cry at that moment I knew something wasn’t right!  I just kept asking god to please please let me hear his cry. Finally, after what felt like a lifetime, I heard him cry and tears of happiness of joy just poured down my face. He was ok! He was alive! He finally cried! I took one look at him and was so in love!  we named him Angelo Torres Jr.

    Today my little Aj is 7 years old and in the 1^st grade. My little Aj’s life did not start off so easy he had to be resuscitated a couple times when he was born. But he was born a fighter he fought, and he is alive here with us 7 years later. Due to the complication at birth he had and still has breathing issues. As a baby we were always in and out the ER with him. But dispute all that happened to him and everything they have diagnosed him with he keeps fighting! My little Aj is the smartest, outgoing, loudest, funniest, talkative little boy I have laid eyes on. Aj gave me the best name anyone could ever call me. Aj made me a mother and showed me what motherhood is. No matter what kind of day he is having he always has the biggest smile on his face. I love his smile he smiles with his eyes! Not a day goes by that I don’t thank god for him because without that little boy I wouldn’t be who I am and where I am today. My Aj drives me crazy and at times makes me want to pull my hair out but what matter’s the most to me is that he is HERE, and he is MINE!   

                                                                         Thanks for reading with love Angelica ❤